The most vivid memories include the round cut-crystal dish with a bottom surface that sparkled like a thousand real diamonds that nestled the log-shaped cranberry sauce — fresh from the can, of course; the candy-sweet and scrumptious yams with their marshmallow pillow top that for the kids at the table hid any resemblance to a vegetable; the longtime family recipe turkey dressing that was also turkey stuffing in our house, a three-day concoction of creamy cooked potatoes, stale white bread, whole milk, grated yellow onions, salt, and lots of dried Summer Savory.
And dessert? Well, Mom was the Betty Crocker of the neighborhood, so even when it was just the four of us for Thanksgiving – Mom, Dad, my sister and I — mince, pumpkin, and apple pies decorated the dessert table, their collective aromas teasing our taste buds into saving room for the best part of the meal.
Once the turkey had been dismembered and relished, and its remaining juicy meat safely tucked away in the refrigerator for tomorrow’s sandwiches, my father always carefully extracted the wishbone from the big bird, delicately placing it on the kitchen windowsill to dry out for a few days. The wishbone represented the magical world of dreams and their chasers, like when you find a penny on the sidewalk and put it in your left shoe for good luck. You either believe or you don’t. We did. I still do.
But it was a long few days of watching and waiting, of thinking and planning. Dad’s wishbone had to reach the critical point; don’t touch it before that, he would warn, it needs time to wither in the sunlight on the sill in order to be completely dry and therefore more apt to give way to the tugging of small, eager hands in search of a lofty wish come true. His no-touching rule allowed me sufficient time to gather my wishes, tossed together like a big bowl of leftover Halloween candy. Which one will it be this time, I’d wonder, mentally sorting through the magical possibilities in my youthful brain. Too young to even think to wish for fame and fortune – if only I had those opportunities back! – I’m sure I usually wished for something like a new Barbie or bike for Christmas, or a family vacation to Disneyland.
The wishbone on my windowsill today is from a classic roasted whole chicken that I recently bedded down with celery, onions and carrots, much like I would a pot roast of beef, being careful not to overcrowd the buttered and seasoned bird. Though not from a Thanksgiving turkey, my small chicken wishbone still represents the wishes of my past as much as the wishes of my future. It is, after all, about magic and tradition, and is an homage to my father and his endearing childlike ability to make me believe that wishes do indeed come true. Besides, I could use a little bit of magic right about now.
Several months ago, I suddenly lost my job after 19 years with the same company. The experience was like a chair being pulled out from under me as I prepared my body to sit. It was as jolting as it sounds, not to my posterior but to my rapidly decreasing level of confidence. I am 55 years old and worlds apart from the college graduates who will now sit beside me in Human Resources waiting rooms. Each day I frantically give chase to my fleeing sense of value in the world.
Who am I anyway? Am I my resume´? The lyrics from the Broadway hit, A Chorus Line, resonate over and over inside me like a churning pot of bubbling cream begging to be pulled from the heat. Perhaps the only thing I know for sure at this point is that I am a writer who likes to get creative in the kitchen.
And I am a dreamer. If keeping the wishbone tradition alive is a shout-out to Dad, then my nagging urge to play in the kitchen is a low, slow, royal curtsy to my mother, who believed in the healing powers of cooking and baking for others.
It is with her in mind that I begin this blog to reinvent my life while revisiting the recipes and food memories of my youth. I didn’t quite realize it before she was gone, but the hours she spent in her well-worn kitchen weren’t merely about putting food on the table. They were about moments of love and laughter and life; about the fine art of relishing a happy memory as much as you would a bite of something deliciously decadent as it rolled around in your mouth, danced a bit with your taste buds, and slid down your throat. You want it to linger and visit, to carry over until the next moment of sweet satisfaction.
This is my journey of getting from here to there – wherever there may be. It is a journey of discovery and reinvention. Kindred spirits adrift on the same swelling sea: if you’re out there, chime in. Together we’ll remake ourselves and soothe our souls. This is our ship of second chances and it has many open seats. And like any good cruise, the accent will be on the food. Enjoy!